Currently listening to: Endings of a New Kind (album) by Taken by Cars
This blog has been oh-so-quiet lately. As usual, words fail me as far as expressing things are concerned. Now if there's a way to translate my frantic thoughts into words, life would be much easier for me. Perhaps it will help others understand me.. and finally I'll be able to fully understand myself..
Nah I dunno.. Perhaps blogging isn't for me..
Anyway, I need to take time off.. Perhaps I have been too dependent on the Internet in order for me to feel "full" and to fully feel.. In order for me to escape from my insecurities, my issues and stuff.. I need to get away, think, think and think..
Not sure if this will be my last entry here.. I hope I can come back, happier and that.. In any case, thanks for checking out my life - my dodginess and all that.. Au revoir!
P.S.: I've got no plans of deleting this blog whatsoever 'coz I wanna look back someday and be able to laugh at myself for being such an emo-headed geek! LOLness.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
whoas and woes
Currently listening to: Secondhand Serenade tracks
My "Whoa's" are overshadowed by my "Woes".
Isn't it guilt-inducing whenever everything seems fine from an external perspective, but you know that you're hurtin' deep inside 'coz matter how bright the sun shines, you concern yourself more with whatever clouds that may cover it? You then see yourself being accused as a "whiner" and an ungrateful jerk.
Tough times, I know. It's like riding a rollercoaster, yet not getting exhilirated by the experience. This absolutely sucks.
My "Whoa's" are overshadowed by my "Woes".
Isn't it guilt-inducing whenever everything seems fine from an external perspective, but you know that you're hurtin' deep inside 'coz matter how bright the sun shines, you concern yourself more with whatever clouds that may cover it? You then see yourself being accused as a "whiner" and an ungrateful jerk.
Tough times, I know. It's like riding a rollercoaster, yet not getting exhilirated by the experience. This absolutely sucks.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Blog h(e)aven
Currently listening to: various tracks in my laptop :D
(Actually, Little Bit's "Forget about Me" has been my "wake up" song for the past 2 days, hehehe!)
Yeah,Blogger is now available in Filipino!
It's 'bout time that the Filipino community's blogging power is now recognised.
Philippines will soon be not just the world's SMS capital, but also the blogging capital.
(Actually, Little Bit's "Forget about Me" has been my "wake up" song for the past 2 days, hehehe!)
Yeah,
It's 'bout time that the Filipino community's blogging power is now recognised.
Philippines will soon be not just the world's SMS capital, but also the blogging capital.
Monday, January 28, 2008
Cross-posting
I posted this in another blog of mine (which I no longer update) several months' back (30th of May last year, to be exact). I'm posting it here, pure and unadulterated, save for some formatting that I've done. Notice this guy's angst!
"Ugh, what is it about me that people wanna know about anyway, says my Multiply profile. I tend to be boring, you know. Why’d I say that? ‘Coz I’m by myself 24/7.. I mean, I can be with a group of people but still have that shark called “loneliness” biting through this guy’s heart and soul as if I were an unfortunate fish that crossed its path..
Perhaps I have to spill some beans on why I act distant towards people, as in people in general.. Perhaps, I never seem to run out of reasons for feeling insecure - that no matter what I do, everyone else is better than me.. AND in my book, someone better than me doesn’t necessarily translate to someone to befriend me.. This thought pattern has a lot to do with both past experiences and my being uber-introvert..
I realised that there are over 6 billion people in this third rock from the sun, but no I’m alone often times. Why can’t I just let loose and swim with the fishes in this vast ocean (and sooner or later find a group of people who will love and accept me for me and in turn will I love and accept for who they are).. Will I find them soon? Will I find them 4 time zones away from Manila? Or better yet, will I be the person someone that is worth the love and acceptance?
Ugh, I said it.. I mean, I just can’t believe I wrote this..
Anyway, I will be unleashing a new blog in a few months’ time.. Can’t tell what’s in it right now, until things are settled.. This will be exciting.. So far, the initials of this blog are W.W.
Peace out!"
"Ugh, what is it about me that people wanna know about anyway, says my Multiply profile. I tend to be boring, you know. Why’d I say that? ‘Coz I’m by myself 24/7.. I mean, I can be with a group of people but still have that shark called “loneliness” biting through this guy’s heart and soul as if I were an unfortunate fish that crossed its path..
Perhaps I have to spill some beans on why I act distant towards people, as in people in general.. Perhaps, I never seem to run out of reasons for feeling insecure - that no matter what I do, everyone else is better than me.. AND in my book, someone better than me doesn’t necessarily translate to someone to befriend me.. This thought pattern has a lot to do with both past experiences and my being uber-introvert..
I realised that there are over 6 billion people in this third rock from the sun, but no I’m alone often times. Why can’t I just let loose and swim with the fishes in this vast ocean (and sooner or later find a group of people who will love and accept me for me and in turn will I love and accept for who they are).. Will I find them soon? Will I find them 4 time zones away from Manila? Or better yet, will I be the person someone that is worth the love and acceptance?
Ugh, I said it.. I mean, I just can’t believe I wrote this..
Anyway, I will be unleashing a new blog in a few months’ time.. Can’t tell what’s in it right now, until things are settled.. This will be exciting.. So far, the initials of this blog are W.W.
Peace out!"
Saturday, January 19, 2008
"I am your brother, your best friend forever.."
Meet Renaldo Lapuz, reputedly known as "William Hung" of American Idol Season 7. And he's a Filipino. I dunno whether to laugh or to cry.
For now, let's sing along:
"I am your brother, your best friend forever.."
For now, let's sing along:
"I am your brother, your best friend forever.."
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Whoasome!
Currently listening to: Boys Like Girls (album) by Boys Like Girls
Guess what?! I received an e-mail from Schmap Wellington Guide, asking my permission so that they can post one of my photos in the upcoming edition of their travel guide. Actually, this was just included in their short-list, so anything is still possible. Nonetheless, this is sweet!
I'm like, whoa! Like it was my first time to have a digital camera, let alone dabble with photography. Before, I'm not really keen to take photos because I feel like I might mess up with the photo. Basically it was fear that motivated me not to pursue things. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of criticism.. Fear! 4 letter word, but nonetheless a powerful word that brings about dread and intimidation. And the truth is I lived in its shadows for so many years, perhaps most of my childhood and adolescence (fine, early manhood.. hehehe!)
But I must say that those 3-month stay in Wellington has instilled something in me. OK, something in me got unleashed as I spent those brief moments with my other family. Brief, yes. They may forget me sooner or later. I may forget them as I shuffle through life (I really hope not.) But I'm still thankful that even for a short time in my early 20's, something meaningful and life-enhancing has occurred to me. Somehow, I learned to love myself for the first time. For all my God-given strengths and limitations. I have somehow a sense of security, that despite the oppositions I may face, fear not! That somehow I am lovable for who I am. That I'm being transformed from glory to glory. That hey, I can take some decent photos that my mates appreciate and somehow miss. And one of those photos is being considered to grace a travel guide for future visitors of Windy Wellington, that spot in the world wherein a small and loving community hangs out together inside a cafe in Glover Park.
And here is the photo. I took this last November 1, just 5 days before I said "Au revoir, Wellington!" The mixture of joy and melancholy brought about by my 3-month experience have somehow inspired me in this photo. And yes, you guys (you know who you are).. you all inspired me! Sounds cheesy, but yeah whatever!
Guess what?! I received an e-mail from Schmap Wellington Guide, asking my permission so that they can post one of my photos in the upcoming edition of their travel guide. Actually, this was just included in their short-list, so anything is still possible. Nonetheless, this is sweet!
I'm like, whoa! Like it was my first time to have a digital camera, let alone dabble with photography. Before, I'm not really keen to take photos because I feel like I might mess up with the photo. Basically it was fear that motivated me not to pursue things. Fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of criticism.. Fear! 4 letter word, but nonetheless a powerful word that brings about dread and intimidation. And the truth is I lived in its shadows for so many years, perhaps most of my childhood and adolescence (fine, early manhood.. hehehe!)
But I must say that those 3-month stay in Wellington has instilled something in me. OK, something in me got unleashed as I spent those brief moments with my other family. Brief, yes. They may forget me sooner or later. I may forget them as I shuffle through life (I really hope not.) But I'm still thankful that even for a short time in my early 20's, something meaningful and life-enhancing has occurred to me. Somehow, I learned to love myself for the first time. For all my God-given strengths and limitations. I have somehow a sense of security, that despite the oppositions I may face, fear not! That somehow I am lovable for who I am. That I'm being transformed from glory to glory. That hey, I can take some decent photos that my mates appreciate and somehow miss. And one of those photos is being considered to grace a travel guide for future visitors of Windy Wellington, that spot in the world wherein a small and loving community hangs out together inside a cafe in Glover Park.
And here is the photo. I took this last November 1, just 5 days before I said "Au revoir, Wellington!" The mixture of joy and melancholy brought about by my 3-month experience have somehow inspired me in this photo. And yes, you guys (you know who you are).. you all inspired me! Sounds cheesy, but yeah whatever!
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Saturday, January 12, 2008
The weekend dilemma
Currently listening to: Park Bench Theories (album) by Jamie Scott & The Town
When I have to wake up, my body still craves for sleep.
(Weekdays, ugh!)
When I still wanna sleep, a burst of energy suddenly surges into my body.
(Weekends, whoa!)
:D
When I have to wake up, my body still craves for sleep.
(Weekdays, ugh!)
When I still wanna sleep, a burst of energy suddenly surges into my body.
(Weekends, whoa!)
:D
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