Now what?!

Currently listening to: Wincing the Night Away (album) by The Shins

2K8 has already begun! Let's see:
- Today (January 6) marks the 3rd month of our Feilding trip ("our" being Helen, Kiri, Nga and yours truly!). And it just so happen that right now most of the Blueprint crew are there for the Soul Survivor festival. At the mo, I wish I were there!
- I just had a MAJOR hairstyle change yesterday. All I can say is that I'm not yet ready to post a photo of me at this time. NOT YET! :)
- I'll be back at work tomorrow! (After 2 weeks' worth of holiday!) And I'm not yet that ready to face reality.. Perhaps my new hairstyle (or the lack of it, oops it just slipped out of my keyboard LOL) will break the ice for me..
- This is the year of the Beijing Olympics and the US presidential elections. Speakin' of MAJOR world events, I'm wonderin' if I will have another opportunity to travel this year. (Just in case I can't drop by NZ for this year..)
- I wanna be absolutely excited for this year. But it's the pessimistic mindset that tends to spoil the fun for me. I dunno.. I wanna break through stuff this year.. Break barriers, break walls, break hearts (nah!)
- And I'm turning 23 this year! (Man, I just turned 22 a few months back and now I'm talking about 23!)

I just feel lonely as usual! It's just 35 gigs worth of music in my laptop, the new Philip Yancey book I bought a week ago ("Soul Survivor") and me.. I know I'm by my own right now (physically with people but Im like a walled city).. The truth is I wanna talk to someone I can trust and sense that he/she is willing to be my shrink even for a few hours(!).. I just wanna spill out my mind and heart.. Even if it takes tears and bits of laughter just to make the point in expressing the funk I'm into at present..

Yeah I know I need HIM right now.. But perhaps I need someone who can go with me in going to HIM.. That's it!